For whatever reason the thought dawned on me just a few moments ago "could I sacrifice my son for the sake of another, would I be able as Abraham did to lay my son down on an alter and trust in God with the kind of faith that he had?"
Knowing my boy's life has already been saved by his personal belief in what Jesus did on the cross (John 3:16 "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.) and knowing that there are many in his life (our lives) that have not yet taken hold of that gift of eternal life awaiting them- what if I need to be willing to hold so loosely to this precious gem which has been entrusted to me, that I am willing to see his life be taken for the very reason of another precious soul being saved from an eternity in hell?
God sacrificed his son for the WHOLE WORLD, for all that believe and call on His name, but this is God were talking about. So what about Abraham, being a "man" just like you and I, he was willing to make that ultimate sacrifice and it wasn't until the very last moment that God stopped him from following through with the sacrifice. Abraham loved God so much and he had enough faith in Him to trust and do what he was being asked to do.
I continue to pray for a miracle, for the most amazing news we could possibly get from these upcoming test and as I still believe, truly believe ALL things are possible through Him I am being reminded that many who love and trust in Him have had untimely departures and their loved ones prayed and believed in a miracle as well. Did God not answer their prayers? God answers all prayers but the answers are not always what we want them to be. I just don't want to be blinded to what God is doing here, to His ultimate plan (from the very beginning) to do amazing things even if they are not what I want.
Am I strong enough, is my faith strong enough to go climb that mountain with my boy following behind me knowing what needs to be done when we get there? Will God have me follow through with it or does He just want to see if I am willing?
